021010 - FootNotes

 

 
 

From the Editor 

FootNotes Magazine is a dream-come-true for me. You see, I have known that I wanted to be a writer ever since my beloved mother (Edna Baker) took me to meet the incomparable Gwendolyn Brooks and listen to her poetry at the main branch of the Detroit Public Library. I was eight-years-old.

But dreaming is one thing - making the dream come true is a far more difficult task. For many of us, the dream has taken a circuitous route, down the roads of undergrad and graduate programs, finding spouses and raising children, dealing with divorce and decadence, or missing golden opportunities - failing to hit the home run when all lights were on you. In other words it takes the willingness to run the race until the end while weathering the storms of life that will continue to rage.

In many ways, I can relate to the celebrated author E. Lynn Harris, who is the subject of our cover story in this inaugural edition.

Both of us had careers with IBM that ended in frustration - the challenge of being proud, Black men in an institution that demanded we assimilate if we were going to succeed. We both pledged Alpha Phi Alpha joining the ranks of other intellectually astute African-American men who believed that brotherhood and love for all mankind were more than just words to be sung. And we both truly loved our "mommas." [Don't get it twisted my friends - my DAD was always there too and he was a righteous brother. I guess the Oedipus complex was just in full force].

As you read the feature stories, the interviews, the poetry, essays and the book excerpts in this and subsequent issues of FootNotes Magazine, it is my hope that they will somehow spark a love for reading and writing and the passion for intellectual exchange that was the foundation for such pivotal moments in African-American history like the Harlem Renaissance Movement in the early 20th century as well as the Black Arts Movement of the late 60s and early 70s.

Let me state emphatically that this magazine should never be viewed as a project for any one kind of writer or reader - it's not just about gay writers, or Black writers, or feminist writers or Third World writers, nor is it intended for specific types of readers. We are here so that the voices of all writers can be heard and our goal is to include a variety of traditions, styles, backgrounds, beliefs and genres that will whet your appetite and cause you to go to your latest bookstore, the local spoken word venue or even a conference where you can continue to expand your mind. It may be just what you need to really communicate with your daughter, your wife, your lover or a long-lost friend.

I, along with all of the other contributors in this magazine including our esteemed publisher, Ralph Emerson, realize that we stand on the shoulders of giants - Langston Hughes, Paul Lawrence Dunbar, Phyllis Wheatley, Toni Morrison, Maya Angelou, Cornel West, Michael Eric Dyson, Ray Bradbury, Robert Frost (okay, these are my favorites but it's my letter). Still, we hold them up as shining examples and trust that with each edition we will prove that we have learned our lessons well.

This edition is dedicated to those souls who have paved the way including my father, Cleveland B. McNeir and my mother-in-law, Evelyn Jenkins, who both told me that I should write - that it was my gift. Thanks to our super talented photographers, Ocean and Michael. Special love to my crumb snatchers, Jared and Jasmine, my MOM (OAOM -that's code folks) and to my other half, JMR of Fayette, Alabama, who has never stopped believing in me! [WE DID IT!].

D. Kevin McNeir
Senior Editor, FootNotes Magazine
February 2010

  

Michael R. Moore
Art Director
Thomas Beckwith
Contributor
Regie Cabico
Contributor
E. Robert Dunn
Contributor
 
In This Issue: Tribute to E. Lynn Harris Interview with Thomas Glave Interview with Da Pharaoh69 (Larry C. Brown)
Book Review:  "It Seems To Hang On" by John Frazier Book Review: "Every Dark Desire" by Fiona Zedde Book Review: "Too Much of a Good Thing Ain't Bad" by Clarence Nero Poetry: "You Bring Out the Writer in Me; Coming Out Duet For Essex Hemphill; & Learning to be My Father's Son" by Regie Cabico
Poetry: "BlackWoman Affair; An Unframed Photograph" by Thomas Beckwith Essays: from "Growing up Motown" by D. Kevin McNeir Serial: "Echelon's End" by E. Robert Dunn  

In Remembrance of Greatness: The Legacy of E. Lynn Harris



Literary Community and Family Pay Tribute to a Legend

By D. Kevin McNeir

 

 
 
 
E. Lynn Harris was a great writer.
E. Lynn Harris was a true trailblazer, redefining the world of self-publishing before becoming a New York Times Bestselling author.
E. Lynn Harris was an inspiration to would-be writers, young men struggling with their sexuality and all those who enjoyed the thrill of a good love story.
E. Lynn Harris was my friend.

The openly gay author, who loved his family, appreciated his friends and often assisted talented new writers promote their books with his personal endorsement and financial contributions, died on July 23, 2009 at the age of 54 as a result of heart disease. He had just started his latest book tour when he fell ill temporarily in Los Angeles. But his death was unexpected, leaving many of his friends and family seeking ways to comfort one another while also looking for the best way to memorialize this amazing man and keep his legacy alive.

From Flint to Fayetteville, and from Arkansas to Atlanta, a call was issued for those who knew him best to gather at several locations and participate in services of tribute to the late Harris.
Many of the words that follow come from a tribute held at Outwrite Bookstore & Coffeehouse - the South's definite site for LGBT literature, films, music and everything in between. And so we came together on a warm Sunday evening in early September to celebrate, to cry and to toast the man many knew simply as "Lynn."

It should be noted that additional comments in this story were gathered during a subsequent "tribute" (also held at Outwrite) which was in fact, the kickoff for the national book tour for Harris' last published novel, Mama Dearest (Karen Hunter Publishing).
 
A Gathering of Friends

Outwrite's owner Philip Rafshoon set the mood for the tribute which included authors, publishers, LGBT community activists and several members of Harris' family. Far from being a session of sad songs, soliloquies of sorrow and tales of regret, the event was instead upbeat - almost a celebration. And that is how E. Lynn would have wanted it.

Philip Rafshoon: "I'm not sure if any tribute can attest to all that he did and represented for the community, writers and the world but we are certainly here to give our best. E. Lynn showed us that every life is a story worth telling and he was an inspiration for many gay writers who may have once been afraid to tell their own stories. It wasn't that he was the first black gay writer to come along with a great story.

But he took it to a whole new level - he opened up the minds of people, straight and gay. Many of us remember E. Lynn Harris when he wrote his first book, Invisible Life. We have had him with us in this store for every one of his book signings and it has been a fantastic journey that we have taken together. And until this country acknowledges our community with equal rights and equal respect, the journey will need to continue."

J.L. King, New York Times Bestselling author: "His influence on the publishing world was amazing - he really had clout. In terms of my own career, E. Lynn touched me and motivated me to write my book about the down low and then other projects.

And what was great about him is that he helped others get their foot in the door and their books into the hands of the public. Some people have debated about who will fill his shoes but I would say that no one really can. There will never be another E. Lynn Harris."

Cindy Barnes, College Friend: "We've been friends since college at the University of Arkansas and he and my brother pledged Alpha Phi Alpha together. When my brother died from AIDS in 1995, E. Lynn was there for him and for our family - he became my brother and an uncle for my children. He had a way of uniting people and had a heart as big as they come."

Jessie Phillips (Aunt "G"), Aunt: "He was more than a nephew to me - he was more like another one of my sons. Lynn was a compassionate man and loved people. He especially enjoyed taking me and my sister [Harris' mother] to one new city a couple of times a year that we had never visited.

I remember one time we were in Philadelphia and a young man shared how much he [Harris] had inspired him. The young man admitted that before reading Lynn's novels, he had never read a complete book in his life - and he enjoyed it!

 
"When my nephew was 14 or 15, he sat down and told me that he was gay. I told him that I loved him unconditionally and I told him that until his death. I know he was afraid that I might reject him, but I could never have done that. I believe that he tended to give more to others than he got back, but then he enjoyed giving.

He had it rough growing up and his stepfather tried to beat his "gayness" out of him. His mother never knew that but if she had known, there would have been real trouble. With all of that it's amazing to me how beautiful a person he became.

"I remember when he quit his job at IBM - he was very unhappy and said he wanted to write. I told him if that was his passion then he needed to write but I also told him that he would have to be willing to sacrifice in order to make that dream come true. Then I made a deal with him - I told him he could stay with me and work on his book. He would read a few chapters to us at a time and I was amazed at his talent.

He had to be one of the most descriptive writers I have ever known. I could see his characters and all of our family encouraged him.

"That first book was tough for him. He lived at Kinko's getting it printed and could not find a publisher so he did it himself. He carried books in his car and went to barber shops and beauty salons and house parties. I even took books to my office.

He had some hard knocks along the way and some friends let him down. But his mother and I both reminded him that sometimes people will let you down - but you have to keep going.

"We had many memorable family gathering and while he was always on a diet, that boy could put some food away. I am grateful that God game him to us for 54 years. That was a true blessing. I have three sons - but E. Lynn Harris was my fourth son."

 

Christopher Bennett, Author: "If it had not been for E. Lynn Harris, I would never have become a writer. His memoirs actually touched me - it was like I knew some of the people in his books and after reading his first book, I began to write my own.

I wanted to write the first great American novel and just the thought of him left me star struck. I reached out to him when I was close to finishing my first book - well, I only had three chapters really done, but he actually read them.

He sat down, read carefully and told me that while he expected it to be mostly trash, that he was very impressed. As I continued to write, he would reach out to me periodically to see how things were progressing. That meant so much to me. Today is like closure for me."

D.J. Coleman, Author: "I had one of those valley moments in my life when I was close to suicide and I told E. Lynn about it. He embraced me and that was the beginning of 10 years of conversation.

He told me he believed in me. I mailed my mother a copy of Invisible Life and told her that the main character was her son. I could not have done that without E. Lynn Harris in my life. "

Fiona Zedde, Author: "I came to the United States from Jamaica and lived with my aunt during my teen years when I was beginning to understand that I was attracted to women. My aunt knew what I was going through and she actually gave me a copy of Invisible Life to help me with my coming out process.

It was the first time I had ever read a book with characters that were experiencing the same highs and lows that I was. Reading his book helped me overcome my own challenges and when I started writing he was my inspiration."

Anthony Antoine, Actor/AIDS Activist: "I remember being that boy in Dallas and my mom gave me Invisible Life to read. I had just recently come out and it was my first time reading a book that told me that I mattered - that my life and my works were worthy. I became like an E. Lynn Harris stalker and I followed him everywhere. I read that first book in quick fashion as if my life depended on it - and in fact, it did! There is still a multitude thronged inside of the closet - but E. Lynn Harris showed us that it doesn't have to and shouldn't be that way. "

Tracie Howard, Author: "Quite simply - E. Lynn Harris was a rock star and a courageous human being. He tackled subjects at a time that very few were brave enough to even touch. And that remained true in all of his novels. We once shared an editor and I needed a blurb for one of my books. Let me tell you it was like pulling teeth and so when I asked E. Lynn I was a bit skeptical about his reply. But he wrote an amazing note for my book cover - I will be forever grateful for how he helped my career move forward."
 

Clarence Nero, Author: "E. Lynn Harris gave me my start in mainstream publishing. He opened the door for me and he encouraged me and was kind. I knew I had to be a part of this tribute to tell the world how special he was to so many writers like me."

Laura Gilmore, Adopted Mother: "I was so touched when Lynn told me that he was going to dedicate his last book to me. But that was just Lynn. He loved to spend time with his family and I had the pleasure of working with him for five years as his personal assistant.

His mother was always foremost in his mind and I was always included with her and his Aunt Jessie. We miss him so much that I cannot tell you how much it pains me to know he is no longer here for me to talk to. I still have the last message he left for me on my answering machine - I will never erase it."

R.M. Johnson, Award-winning Author: "We met in 1999 at a book signing event for Omar Tyree in Chicago. My first book, The Harris Men, had not come out yet and I really wanted to talk with him about it. But I was really hesitant because I figured he would flick me away like a fly. But he was so gracious - it was the start of a 10-year friendship. He was the only person to give me a blurb for my book and that was really helpful. There are so many new and emerging authors that he helped like me. During those ten years we took road trips together and had some candid conversations. He was really cool people and I am going to miss him - and the black man could write!"

Eric Jerome Dickey, New York Times Bestselling author: "I still miss E. Lynn Harris - hearing his voice on the telephone saying 'what's up frat?' He was a funny man and a real card. There are so many stories that most people do not know of how he helped writers get started in the business.

For me I have said it before and I will say it again - E. Lynn Harris sent me out on my first book tour when I was barely making ends meet by working as a substitute teacher.

I didn't even know him then. But he footed the bill so I could go to three cities - something that my publisher at that point wasn't even willing to do."

Etta Mae Harris, Mother: "Lynn was my only boy and my first child and he always signed his cards 'your number one son.' After the divorce he became the man of the house for me and his three younger sisters. He was a blessing to us all."

Harris' mother, who was the final speaker, chose to end her comments at that point, clearly overcome with emotion.

 
Epilogue

E. Lynn Harris introduced us to Yancey, Basil, Kyle, Raymond and the irascible Ava - characters that reminded us of ourselves, our friends and our lovers. He showed us that love should not be defined by the narrow parameters of a close-minded world. He illustrated how there can be victory and joy even in the painful process of "coming out" - admitting to others that we are different than they may have imagined. He helped us see that the only box we need to fit in is the one the Creator planned for us.

Years from now his stories will continue to live on, inspiring future generations of straight and gay youth to love themselves and to have the courage to openly love the man or woman that makes their hearts skip a beat and brings them joy.

 

 

 

Jamaican "Native Son" Challenges Notions of Race and Sexuality

 

The Brilliance That is Author Thomas Glave

By D. Kevin McNeir
Sr. Correspondent
& Editor

 

 
 
 
The first time I met Thomas Glave was during the inaugural Fire and Ink Conference in Chicago around six years ago. Since then, this writer has followed the scholar's career and his published works with great interest and delight.
 
In record time, Dr. Glave has become known for his erudite expressions concerning the intersection of race and sexuality. In one word, Glave is - brilliant.

While born in the United States in the Bronx, Glave comes from Jamaican parents and spent a considerable amount of his formative years on the tiny island. From his Rasta-like appearance to his sing-song patterns of speech, it is clear that Jamaica - its history and its people - remain imbedded in his spirit.

But being a same gender loving man who loves the home of his ancestors has not been easy, given the negative attitudes and sometimes deadly and aggressive actions aimed at homosexuals.

Not to be deterred, Glave helped found the Jamaica Forum of Lesbians, All-Sexuals and Gays (J-Flag) while in Jamaica to pursue post graduate education opportunities and continues to speak justice to a situation of injustice.

His skill for writing has been acknowledged with numerous awards, including the Lambda Literary Award for Nonfiction (2005) for his collection of essays, Words to Our Now: Imagination and Descent for which he also garnered the O. Henry Prize, becoming only the second gay African-American writer, after James Baldwin, to win the award.

We caught up with our friend and colleague recently in Atlanta where he was on a national book tour promoting his latest project, a collection of challenging and insightful short stories entitled, The Torturer's Wife (City Lights Publishing, 2008).

"Each of the stories is stylistically distinct but each has its own particular issues and questions that I want to focus on and present to the reader," Glave said. "In the first story in the book, "Between," I wanted to explore what it would be like for two men from different races to experience a sexual relationship.
 
Class of 2009: Award-winning author Thomas Glave (seated below) contemplates with fellow author Vestal McIntyre, who with other leaders from the LGBT community like Adam Lambert, Cyndi Lauper, Wanda Sykes and Lee Daniels, were selected as the "Top 100" most inspiring and outstanding men and women of the year by OUT Magazine. 
 
Are the taste, the look and the smell quite different and does it even matter? And what kinds of thoughts does one have while making love?" [For our old school readers, such reflections are the kind that would make former talk show host Arsenio Hall say, "Hmmm."]

Glave next read excerpts from "Out There," which is an account of an exorcism held in a small Jamaican village where the natives burn down the home of an admitted homosexual while he is still inside and refuse to allow him to exit, unless he wishes to accept mutilation and death at the hands of machete-wielding men.

"The story isn't based on an historical account but it well could be," he added. "I was interested in how easy it is for some to participate in such atrocities when we do not know the person. In such cases our fellow humans view their victims not as people but as a thing - an object. And somehow that make it easier.

"In the second part of the story I deal with one of the characters, Solomon, and purposely remove all racial markers like Toni Morrison does in Paradise. I was interested in the assumptions that we make about people once we know their race and what more, if anything, is really known about someone when we are told that they are a "black woman" as opposed to just a "woman."

"Analyzing race in America is very different from how it impacts people in Jamaica. In Jamaica, the racial markers have more to do with the color of one's skin - the shades of brown. So, those who are brown, red or black are viewed differently and have different degrees of access - that is to say, skin color makes a difference vis-à-vis social class. 

One is considered in a different class based on their color and that is part of our lasting legacy of being a colonized nation."

 
 
 
 
Glave points out that language is a major focus in his writing and asserts that depending on where is raised, they tend to understand culture and speak to it in very different ways. Even the way we communicate, according to Glave, will undoubtedly change, based on our place of origin.

"I chose to use multiple voices in "Out There" and sought to provide it with its own energy and propulsion," he said. "I wanted to establish the tableau so that it was clear that the story was not written for a North American audience. I wanted the reader to be able to see what it was like to live in that town and to understand that the stakes were different for the main characters because while both gay, only one of the characters is from Jamaica. This story was difficult for me to write because I felt imprisoned by language and its constraints. I wanted to see if I could free language and give it [language] its own expansiveness. "

Glave says that his stories are pieces of fiction and almost never, except on one occasion, based on real people. Still, his characters speak to him and - he listens.

"I suppose my characters speak to me but then I guess that should be expected since I live with them for quite a long time," he said. "When Solomon speaks [in "Out There"] his extended patois is a language that is not standardized in Jamaican writing. 

You could say that I was experimenting with his words and attempting to show it on the page grammatically and make it read clearly to a Jamaican audience.

"The issues that Jamaicans face are not what African Americans experience here in the United States. Understand, Jamaica is a black country but the degrees of black and brown define one's social class and the opportunities that are either present or denied because of their skin color. 

African Americans seem to have that same tension [recall American literature about house slaves versus field slaves where the lighter-skinned slaves were given the privileged position of being indoors] but don't tend to feel it as much as we do in Jamaica. In Jamaica it is more desirable to be "brown" not "black."

 
 
 
 
"The color is significant and when I was a child I didn't understand that but I attempt to now confront it and expose it in my writing. In my uncle's house back in Jamaica, the house staff were all black [dark-skinned] and we called them by their first name. 

But for those who were brown [lighter] we were instructed to call them by their title - mister, misses. Even my relatives who were darker were not accepted like I was. And as for my friends, I was not allowed to have too many "black" friends. It's still a complicated situation."

Glave continues to push the button and challenge notions of conformity in all of his work. He is currently working on a piece of fiction that examines life for the middle class and how they live within the confines of their black-brown obsessions.

He says that besides language, one of his primary concerns is the lasting impact of slavery and colonization on the people of Jamaica.

"I was working on a Fulbright Fellowship in Jamaica and was concentrating on issues of social justice when I helped found J-Flag," he said. "I have always been interested in the LGBTQ life of Jamaicans and how our country's history and colonization have shaped how we view those who are not part of the heterosexual world. Why are the men there so vehemently opposed to homosexuality? 

I think it is because we have not dealt with our bodies - the many women and men who were raped by their colonizers. The result it that Jamaicans are both very sensual while at the same time repressed - almost puritanical. We live in a world with a lot of contradictions because of our former English rulers. The strange thing is that you find rampant expressions of homosexuality in the most unexpected places."

To read the work of Thomas Glave is to experience his penchant for listening which manifests itself in how he tells a story. And it is clear that each word is carefully chosen before he puts it down on paper.

 
 
 
 
"I remain inspired by the rich and expressive language of Gabriel Garcia Marquez and Toni Morrison but I also grew up around a lot of story tellers," he said. "I was fascinated by the phrases they used and how grown people would sometimes say such outrageous things while acting like I was not within listening distance. Then they would remind me not to say what they had said - so I tried to be quiet and just listen.

"One of the best places to observe language for me was always in church. You hear so many fascinating conversations, especially after church is over. All of those rich experiences are added into the stories and essays that I write. 

Even the music is included in the language and the sounds that I seek to recreate. Sometimes just a simple "uh hum," can mean so many different things. 

That's the amazing thing about our people in the Diaspora. Sometimes what we say sounds similar but it means very different things. The challenge I have set for myself is to somehow convey the particular meaning of these phrases and words on the page which maintaining the sound."

If you are looking for more from Thomas Glave, this writer recommends his edited anthology of gay and lesbian writing from the Caribbean - a collection that has been described as an "unprecedented literary conversation" on LGBT experiences throughout the Caribbean and its "far-flung Diaspora." 

With authors representing 37 countries, some who still live in the Caribbean with others having moved to Europe, Canada or the United States, the pieces are urgent messages from teachers, performers, activists and community organizers.

 
 
 
 
Our Caribbean: A Gathering of Lesbian and Gay Writing from the Antilles (Duke University Press, 2008) is a unique analysis of how same-gender loving and longing intersects with religion, family, race and class all within the Caribbean context and how ostracism and alienation become the common factor and obstacle that stands in the way of true equality and freedom for far too many men and women.

Glave is a former Martin Luther King Jr. Visiting Professor in the Program in Writing and Humanistic Studies at Massachusetts Institute of Technology and is currently Professor of English at SUNY - Binghamton where among his course offerings he is now engaged in a class that introduces students to contemporary black gay/lesbian writers.

"The course is called "Politics and Courage: Contemporary African-American 'Queer' Writings," and in it we will cover an assortment of essays, poetry, short stories and films," Glave said. "The span of history is about 25 years and that includes everything from Essex Hemphill's Brother to Brother to the words of Audre Lorde. 

I think the course is extremely relevant for my students but it is also a strange

experience because in many ways the works that we cover I have lived them as a foundation for my life.

"For my students it is a history lesson. It's amazing when you consider that the project Tongues Untied [a semi-documentary film produced by Marlon Riggs with assistance from Hemphill that celebrates Black men loving Black men and posits it as a "revolutionary act"] is now 21-years-old and was made before some of these students were born. 

I recognize how complicated this material can be - it's complicated because many of the authors were responding to other black writers who came before them and who were not gay. So the texts on which we concentrate are exploding a lot of stereotypes.

"Adding to the difficulty is helping students understand the nuances of black culture. One of my tasks therefore is to help my students grasp the historical context of the black experience in America and that too is quite complicated because it is so regionalized. [Being black in Atlanta is a different experience than being black in Boston.]

 
 
 
"The course is only a 14-week class but there is more black gay writing out there than ever before - even more than 2001 when I last taught this course."
 

" There are more black gay films that we can access and study. The result is that there is a lot for the students to take on but so far it has been a great deal of fun. 

Sometimes I have to explain what the authors are talking about like in Essex's poem "American Wedding," where one black man is talking about placing a cock ring on his lover's penis. My students could not appreciate how Hemphill is playing on the image of the wedding ring with the cock ring if they didn't know what a cock ring is - and many didn't.

"The material has heavily sexual themes and deals with black bodies and so before we can discuss these profound works, 

I have to get some of my students past their shyness. We are moving along through the material quite well and in a progressive way but again, there's so much to cover that I don't even attempt to tackle figures like James Baldwin although he is referenced throughout the course - that could be a course all by itself."

Look for an opportunity to listen to Glave when he makes an appearance in your town. And read his books. You will go away enlightened and changed forever. 

Thomas Glave can be reached at tglave@binghamton.edu or tglave@mit.edu.

 
 
 

 

Protégé of E. Lynn Harris overcomes poverty, abuse and HIV



Self-published author Dapharoah69 succeeds on national book tour

By D. Kevin McNeir

 

 
 
 
Larry C. Wilson Jr., 32, looks like he should be a cover model instead of an author, but don't let the good looks, chiseled abs and inviting smile fool you - this brother from Goulds (Florida) is an amazing writer with a fan base whose numbers continue to soar. But more than that - he is a survivor.
The victim of repeated sexual abuse during his early childhood and growing up both poor and without ever knowing his biological father, life has not been easy for Wilson. But as he says, pain and hardship forced him to grow up quickly.

"As the oldest of five kids, everything always fell on me," he said. "My mother expected me to maintain order when she wasn't home and if something went wrong, I was the one that was punished. The last time my father was on the scene, so I'm told, I was only 10-months-old so you could say that I don't have a father. But somehow we made it."

"Making it" might be considered an understatement because this self-proclaimed "King of Erotica" (a moniker which also serves as the title of his four-book series) has channeled his energies to overcome the negative forces and experiences in his life and write about them in a frank, no-holds-barred style that readers say has helped them confront their own inner demons.

As he continues along his multi-city book tour which began Labor Day Weekend 2009 in Atlanta during the city's annual In The Life Atlanta (black gay pride) with his fifth novel in tow, The King of Erotica IV: The Dethronement, Wilson can boast that he is the only self-published author to have

three of his books hit the Top 100 Bestseller's List for BarnesandNoble.com - and all at the same time.

But that's not all. Wilson has also recently released two additional books - one a collection of short stories focusing on a specific example of fetishes, Some Men Wear Panties, and the one he says he is most excited about, Call Her Queen Hatshepsut, which takes his writing in a totally new direction.

"This is my first book that is not erotica and I think it is the book that will establish me as a serious writer," he said. "I had a dream that gave me the idea for the initial concept and I already knew the history of the Egyptian queen so it kind of wrote itself - in five days to be exact.

 

Some are curious about the title but once they begin reading they see that part of my goal is to give them a history lesson.

"But I also tie in some very personal experiences and things I have faced, including being abused and raped. I wanted to explore the notion of whether the way we express our sexuality - straight or gay - is really a choice or something that is forced on us.

That's what the main character asks himself in the novel - whether he dresses and sees himself as a woman because of his mother's brainwashing, or if it was always a part of his identity.

Telling the story of a young transvestite was really exciting for me because it wasn't about sex. I wanted my readers to bring their questions to the table and I push them in this novel. As for the ending - it's a real shocker."

Wilson sent a copy of his book to his mentor and best-selling author E. Lynn Harris last spring when he was still making revisions and found to his pleasant surprise that Harris thought it was a real hit. Harris even endorsed the novel just weeks before his unfortunate death.

 

"I consider his endorsement to be a real blessing and want to follow his example - even taking my career to places that I am sure he would have if he had had the chance," Wilson said.

"He told me that I have amazing talent and was impressed with how I write from so many different angles.

 That encouragement meant a great deal to me. And he called Queen Hatshepsut a masterpiece. Those were powerful words from someone as talented and successful as E. Lynn Harris."

 

 

 
Early influences and literary role models

During his days in elementary school, Dapharoah69 had the good fortune to be guided by teachers who recognized his potential even though he himself had yet to realize that he had an uncanny ability for writing.

"Even when I was a little boy I felt drawn to writing, but I really hoped that one day I would become a journalist or a television producer," he said. "I won numerous awards for my editing, wrote for the school newspaper and prepared copy for the teleprompter - I just wanted to write. At six I was already beginning to write. But it was mostly something I did for fun.

"My teachers would tell me that if you wanted to improve your writing you had to read the works of accomplished authors and my favorite by far was Langston Hughes, especially his poetry. I think he published something like 15 collections and I have read them all.

His words about love are amazing. Robert Frost also had a profound effect on me, as early as the third grade when my teacher forced me to memorize and recite "The Road Not Taken" for a school competition that incidentally I won. Frost's poetry touched me and opened up something inside of me.

"Then there was James Baldwin who I came upon by accident. A copy of his book Giovanni's Room was on the floor in the library and I picked it up. It was the title that initially grabbed me but as I started to read, I discovered that the story was about gay men. That was something I wasn't ready for. Finally, in terms of major influences, there was E. Lynn Harris.

I think I was still in high school when I was introduced to his seminal work - Invisible Life. I could relate to the characters in a lot of ways and it just blew me away. He explained so much about gay men and love in that book - it was a real revelation."

Struggling to Make His Voice Heard

The road of the self-published author is an arduous one - filled with valleys of setbacks, betrayals and disappointment. But according to Dapharoah69, he soon discovered that if he was going to make his voice be heard, he was going to have to find a way to publish his own work.
"Writing was the easy part," he said. "

It was common for me to whip out a few hundred pages in one sitting or at least in a couple of days. But getting my manuscripts published was another obstacle. Being a self-published author is very difficult and next to impossible.

 

My first deal was supposed to be with Trimaxx Publishersand they introduced me to the idea of using My Space to market my book. That was about five years ago. Talk about naïve.

"I was just another want-to-be author to them and they really burned me. As my popularity grew and I became a super blogger, the traffic really began to increase. Before I knew it the attention I was getting and the demand for my work had overshadowed their number one author.

First they accused me of plagiarism saying it was impossible for someone my age to write something so good. Needless to say I never got the book deal that they initially offered. They betrayed me but it made me even more determined to get my work out there.

"Other aspiring authors can probably relate to the daily grind - I was writing proposals, sending them to publishers, getting a lot of rejections and coming out of my own pocket to cover the expenses. Then someone asked me about doing some movies - porn flicks. The money was really good and I needed the money so I sacrificed my body and who I was and did it. But that only lasted about five days. As soon as I had the money I needed I called it quits.


"I was able to find a distributor and had my book mass-produced. I didn't have a car so I carried my books with me everywhere I went and I gave them away. That was my first book - The King of Erotica I. I just wanted people to read it and naturally I wanted to know what they thought about my work. I was praying that folks would believe I had something worth reading."

Tackling Taboo Topics

Dapharoah69 was now a published author but would his book become just another paperback novel collecting dust on the coffee tables of his friends and family? He says that what happened next was more than he could have hoped for. And he attributes the success of that first novel and his subsequent works to the decision he made to tackle topics that were considered taboo in the black community.

"Things started blowing up like wildfire and people were ordering my book online like crazy," he said. "It kind of took on a life of its own. I was talking about sexual abuse and the things I went through as early as

six-years-old. I challenged families who allowed such abuse to go on while looking the other way. I confronted sexuality in the church and the way men are often promiscuous and cheat on their wives.

I wrote in a way that moved towards understanding the complexities of life and the complex situations that many of us have faced or still face. I wanted to deal with the psychology of my characters and examine what drives a person to do things to others that they know are wrong.

And then, I wanted or perhaps needed to address my own sexuality - why was I attracted to other men and did that make me gay?

"I knew that I was writing about topics that were rarely discussed in our families and in the black community but it was necessary.

 
There are so many of us that are still hurting from stuff that happened to us in our youth or in relationships and we just keep it inside. I went through a lot of the stuff I write about. I knew what it felt like to be raped over and over again and be a helpless victim.

I was treated brutally by people within my own family and every time I went for help, people turned their backs on me. Later on I understood some of what I went through to be part of a generational curse. But at the time all I knew was that it hurt. I hoped that if I shared what I had been through and how I had survived, including attempts at suicide that I would be able to inspire other and help them deal with their own demons. And it worked - people connected with what I was saying."

Some Men Wear Panties

While Wilson (Dapharoah69) prepares to introduce his fans to the final installment in his four-part series, The King of Erotica, he has also just completed a powerful collection of short stories about men with a particular fetish - women's panties.

"Some Men Wear Panties has been getting great feedback since it was released late last year," he said. "The book deals with the psychology of men who are infatuated with women's panties and believe me - there are a lot of men out here that have a real thing for them. I know some brothers that wear them and really like the way they feel on their skin, but if the general public knew about their fetish, they would be looked at quite strangely.

So I write about husbands, boyfriends and even construction workers - every day,

nondescript men who wear panties under their uniforms and suits. Some men just like to smell their woman's aroma that lingers in their panties. Maybe it's a wild notion but it's also reality. And I like to write about the real. And except for one or two stories that deal with men who are gay, it's really about the sexual desires of heterosexual men."

At a Store, or Website, Near You

The way books are distributed and purchased has changed over the last decade. While community bookstores and national chains carry some of his books, the majority of his readers access his books for purchase over the Internet. All of Wilson's books can be purchased on Barnes and Nobel and Amazon.

And if you are the kind of person that likes to read the reviews before you make your selection, you will find that his books are rated with five stars.

 

"My books are available in eight different countries including the United States, France, Germany, the United Kingdom, Canada and Japan," Wilson said. "That's what selling your book online can do for you - broaden the market. And some website reviewers, like Cyrus Webb who is really very popular, have given me five stars on all of my books."

Clearly Wilson has learned how to market himself and his product, with several thousand fans on his Face book page and an estimated 400 book clubs across the globe who have read one or more of his books. And while he is pleased with his success so far, he says he still has a lot more he plans to accomplish.

"I have over 40,000 fans that follow me on Twitter, Tagged and Face book and these are readers who represent a variety of demographics," he said. "E. Lynn used to get a lot of the straight women but I tend to have a lot of straight men. Of course you will always get those people (male or female) who are just looking for a hook up. Some just hit me up because they like my pictures and find me sexy.

And I use that I suppose to hook them and then show them that while I am not interested in having sex with them, that in my novels I do talk about sex and the kinds of situations in which we often find ourselves while pursuing our sexual desires.

Ironically, the ones that were once interested in me from a physical basis have often become my biggest fans. I think that's the power of the Internet. And while I cannot entertain in depth conversations on line, I do personally reply to every note I get, if only to say thank you."

Dapharoah69 says that with each novel he has found that his writing has become more developed and the analysis he provides of his characters has grown more complex. In other words, he has had to delve deeper into the abuse suffered by his characters and then consider how that abuse impacted the decisions they later make as adults.

 

"In order to be honest in my work, I had to relive some of the abuse that I went through as a child - and that was not easy," he said. "The new book is probably my most personal work to date and like all of my books, I reveal a lot about myself at the beginning.

I talk about why I wrote the book and the things I was dealing with while writing. Some writers tend to keep their personal lives separate but for me it is a strategic move - I want my readers to know me intimately."

 
Sometimes Art Imitates Life

One of the author's more personal revelations is the fact that he recently tested positive for the HIV virus. He says that he discovered this during a routine testing that was conducted by one of his friends in South Beach who does community outreach for SoBap, a program that targets the LGBT community. And the news was something that almost destroyed him.

"I had been walking around for the last year or so infected and I didn't even know it," he said. "I was dealing with one man who I loved and who claimed he loved me. But what I discovered was that he was not only positive, but knew he was positive. It was the kind of thing that I write about in my novels. What happens to my characters in my make believe world was actually happening to me in real life.

I guess it's true that in many instances, art imitates life.

"For a few weeks I kind of gave up - I was suicidal and very depressed and while I needed to tell someone, I didn't know who I could tell. It was my secret and I was prepared to die as I had lost my desire to live. But then I decided to tell my 3,000-plus friends who make up my Face book family about my status. I logged on about midnight and shared the news - it was a pivotal moment in my life and I experienced a true epiphany."

Wilson continues his story by saying that before the sun would rise, he had over 790 comments from around the world. People from South Africa, Malaysia, the Philippines, China and even Russia were reaching out to him. And in some cases they even shared that they too were positive and had been living with that secret.

"One sister from Kenya wrote that she had been HIV-positive for 15 years and because I was willing to share the truth about my health, she was able to tell her own family what she had been going through," he said. "I thought it was a glitch in the system," he said. "I mean almost 800 comments is hard to believe.

People were saying that I was their hero and that they were proud of me for being so brave. They were encouraging me not to give up. They were sharing their love and it was so emotional that I finally had to turn off my computer - I was shaking."

He adds that his friends' list grew overnight and his book sales went through the roof.

"All of a sudden I found all three of my books on the same bestseller's list that included Steve Harvey and President Barack Obama," he said. That totally blew me away and I knew that my work had just begun. Right after that, I heard from one of my greatest idols - E. Lynn Harris."

Dapharoah69 was asked to join Harris, as part of his Literary Café as one of three selected authors at an annual event hosted early last year. What's more, Harris would publicly endorse his new protégée, advising him and offering encouragement when needed.

"He [Harris] told me that he wanted me to join him in Miami at the Café because of the kinds of topics I addressed in my books," Wilson said. "And like him, I busted my butt to get my books in the hands of the public. I remember how his first book, Invisible Life, actually changed my life. And it occurred to me that maybe my books might have the same influence on others.

We took a picture together and he held up my books - something he said he almost never did. And within a few hours every book I had with me was sold - well over 100 copies. So when he died recently you can imagine how devastated I was. He had the courage years ago to push the conversation and introduce to the mainstream the reality that some of us were living - men loving and living with men and in relationships with other men who were also brothers, uncles and fathers. I feel like it was my destiny to meet him and believe that we have lost one of our real jewels."

As Dapharoah69 continues to traverse the nation, he isn't just be peddling his books. In fact, one of his primary concerns now is talking about HIV/AIDS awareness. He says with pride that as an official face for Meak Productions he not only has the chance to talk about his work but also how important it is to protect one's self.

"My books often present characters that intentionally affect others with sexually transmitted diseases and since that is my reality I want to educate people," he said. "I guess you can say that I am using my own life as an example and hopefully, will be able to save some people from the pain I have had to deal with. But hey, I am a survivor."

The author can be reached on FaceBook , Tagged or Twitter.

All of the proceeds from the sale of his "Queen" novel have been dedicated to relief efforts in Haiti.

 

Book Review: "It Seems to Hang on"

 

By Thomas Beckwith

 

 
 
 
Characterization and continuity is imperative in John Frazier's "It Seems to Hang On." The main characters in this novella, Jared Walker and Malcolm Black were presented through the immediate establishment of their parents. Jared lived a pleasant life compared to Malcolm; despite his parents being killed in an airplane crash as a teenager.
On the other hand, Malcolm struggles with his mother's erratic behavior toward him because of the absence of his father. The emergence of identity in the lives of both Jared and Malcolm, as teenagers becomes a factor in their personal development.

Moreover, Jared and Malcolm reacts differently to the opportunity of exploring their sexual identity. Jared's aunt, Catherine who adopted him after his parents were killed, encourages him to explore in life. Malcolm's mother adamantly expresses her unwillingness to accept to her son; due to fact that she thought he was gay. Malcolm lived in fear because of these circumstances.

Jared's personal development flourishes with the help of Bruce and Scott, his neighbors; helping him immerse into the gay lifestyle. Meanwhile, Malcolm still was struggling with his own identity especially after being take advantage of sexually, by Mr. Williams and his son Norman; the father and brother of his ex-girlfriend, Nora.

Going to parties, making new friends, having wild spontaneous sex, and going out to dance clubs help for both Jared and Malcolm to grow into the gay culture. All of these different things were entertaining and only lasted for short period of time.

 

John Frazier

 
 

By fate, Jared and Malcolm ended up meeting each other and becoming close friends. Their friendship would developed into a relationship that evolved around drama, which begin like a perfect dream. However, their relationship would ultimately end up crumbling because of lies, betrayal, and deceit.  

Furthermore, the reality of the HIV/AIDS epidemic starts to settle within the minds of Jared and Malcolm, and many of the other characters within "It Seems to Hang On" slowing down and changing the pace of their lives. Yet some of the characters in this novella wanted to still hang on to the memories of the past spontaneous sex, love, friendships, and dance clubs.

This novella consists of how the HIV/AIDS epidemic changed life in society in the 1980's, and he does this by presenting what life was like in the 1970's disco days with Jared Walker and Malcolm Black. John Frazier gives readers the opportunity to take a path down "memory lane" of life before an epidemic that destroyed the lives of many people. There are a few constant themes embedded within "It Seems to Hang on" identity, commitment, acceptance, and love; the characters displays this through their actions.

 
 
 

For Vampire-Sistahs in Love Try Every Dark Desire


Zedde's tale is a fiery blend of eroticism, sensuality and horror

By D. Kevin McNeir

 

 
 
 
Jamaican-born writer Fiona Zedde is currently completing her fifth novel and has already spoken with FootNotes about her life and her passion for writing.
 
And while we will share that interview in its entirety later this year, we thought that given the recent popularity of "anything vampire," it would be fun to review Zedde's Lambda Literary Award-nominated vampire love story, Every Dark Desire (Kensington Books, 2007) which takes on the unique twist of same-gender-loving women as its main characters.

The story focuses on a beautiful Jamaican woman, Naomi McElroy, who finds that her life is incomplete, despite having a lovely little girl and all the comforts of home.

One night during a family vacation in Negril, she leaves her young child in the capable hands of her mother for a night on the town - hoping to finally make her dreams of seduction at the hands of another woman come true.

However, she gets much more than she could have imagined when she meets the mysterious Julia in a jasmine-scented garden under an alluring full moon - and gives in to her secret desire and the burning fire that rages within.

But Julia is no ordinary lesbian. She is part of a secret clan of vampires that is led by the towering, tempting Silvija - whose sensuality and skills of lovemaking cause men and women, mortal or immortal, to yield to her touch and melt in her arms.

For Naomi, one moment of pure ecstasy results in her becoming one of the undead as she becomes "Belle." And while Julia's plan is to make "Belle" her personal love-slave, Silvija stands in the way - first because she finds a woman whose will is as strong as her own.

But more than that - the two women discover that they are "soulmates" and are unexplainably drawn to one another.

Before they know it, Belle and Silvija, much to the chagrin of Julia and the rest of the vampire clan, have fallen in love.

Clearly this is no ordinary "coming out" story with jaunts across the seas for after dark orgies, late night hunts for human blood along island seashores and battles for supremacy waged by other clans in frigid Alaska being just a sample of the adventures facing Belle in her new life.

For Belle, she must learn to accept her new life with its power and its curse. But now she is part of a family where decadence and unbridled sex are pars for the course.

And she must face emotions like anger, resentment and jealousy, which she realizes, almost too late, are feelings shared by beauties and beasts alike.

Fiona Zedde is the author of numerous short stories, three novellas and four best-selling novels.

She describes her work as lesbian fiction and says she focuses on erotica because she believes so strongly in the power of love and romance.

Zedde, who lives in Atlanta, is recently "divorced" and can be reached at www.fionazedde.com. Look for her interview in our March edition.

 

 

 

Love Story Tackles Homophobia in Schools, Frats and More



Nero's Sequel Challenges America's Status Quo

By: D. Kevin McNeir

 
 
 
Book club favorite and protégée to the legendary Maya Angelou, Clarence Nero, is back with Too Much of a Good Thing Ain't Bad (Broadway Books, 2009) continuing in this sequel where he left us at the conclusion of his popular Three Sides to Every Story - with the topsy-turvy love life of Johnny and James and the drama that they can't seem to shake.
 
The couple finds themselves in Washington, D.C. this time, having escaped several near death situations in their native home of New Orleans including the devastation caused by Hurricane Katrina.

Johnny moves to the nation's capital first where he is determined to get his life back on track - even enrolling in college to follow in the footsteps of the men of his family.

And while his family knows full well about his homosexuality, they are determined to steer him in a "new" direction, including an attempt to fix him up with a beautiful southern belle.

But James, always flamboyant but extremely faithful and in love, refuses to allow the well-to-do Lomack family to keep him from his man - even if his man believes that he can assume a heterosexual lifestyle and keep his real desires on the down low.

Nero tackles several sensitive social issues in this novel including the plight of public schools, discrimination against homosexual teachers and homophobic hazing at the hands of a college fraternity.

The author states that his book is based on real life situations that he found "disturbing" including the firing of a co-worker whose sexual orientation was used as the grounds for his dismissal.

When Johnny is viciously attacked by his fraternal brothers after they discover that the new pledge is gay, James springs to action.

Nero employs great courage and creativity as he uses this platform to criticize the ignorance and fear that is still associated with homosexuality and how it jeopardizes real brotherhood and sisterhood for both straight and gay Greek letter members.

How far would you go for love? That is the question that Johnny and James must face.

Nero's novel entertains us with colorful, well-developed characters and a powerful plot. But it also raises topics that are sure to spark vital conversation about the quality of life and the dreams that all Americans share - no matter who they chose to love.

Clarence Nero is an author, screenwriter and educator. His screenplay Cheekie was recently endorsed by Academy Award-winning director Jonathan Demme and the novel from which it is based, "Cheekie: A Child Out of the Desire," has been praised by the renowned poet, Maya Angelou. For more information go to Clarence Nero.

 

Poetry: You Bring Out the Writer in Me

Poetry:
You Bring Out the Writer in Me;
Coming Out Duet For Essex Hemphill;
& Learning to be My Father's Son


By Regie Cabico

 

 
 
 
 
 
Coming Out Duet
For Essex Hemphill

Hi Mom how you doing? I'm fine
I feel like shit

I've moved to Brooklyn. The rent is cheaper
My boyfriend lives there

It's pretty safe, there are cops everywhere …
Body parts found in the trash compactor

I don't trash your letters I read your letters
I hate your letters I rank them in importance with my student loans and Publisher's Sweepstakes

Including the Bible quotes. Yes, mom I go to church I haven't been to confession in 10 years.

Who's who? Tom my roommate from NYU?
I had an M. Butterfly crush on him
I no longer see him

He's great! Maria? We broke up.
Maria's a fag hag a Barney's shopping fruit fly

I'm sure there'll be other women for me
I'm a man in love with a man

I've actually started to write poetry
I'm a pansy poet

No it doesn't all rhyme
Don't show her the poems

These are my poems. A lot of these poems are very …

gay homosexual airbrushed dicks Walt Whitman gender bending Key West sunset
orgasm stall sex ejaculatory lick my boots butch boy

Vivid very vivid utre friend of Dorothy - Richard Gere gerbil anal intercoursing Truman Capote out of the closeted contemporary

Contemporary

Tell her. Give her the gospel truth.

Okay mom we have to talk when I was young I went through dad's porno mags buried under your wedding dress
I will never forget Suzanne Sommer's breasts

When I was an altar boy I stole all the bread wafers I gave Holy Communion to my sisters

I took your copy of The Joy of Sex
Semen stains on the carpet

Don't mention the semen … I mean SEE mom

Quit your goddamn singing
I am a man in love with a man
I am a gay man & I live with a man
I've always been in love with men

Brian Bradley from drama club I wanted to take him to the prom.
Ever since you gave me my first Disney record player

As soon as my poetry came out, I came out
It's one thing to be straight acting
but when I'm writing I can't lie

I write because I loathed the conformity
of Catholic military school

Years cruising the streets in search of men
With long coats,

Stuck between my teeth
hats, hiding from guys like me

Like a cross, a Gethsemane I could not change

The only personal contact
was a trail of cigarette smoke

I swooned on cigarette smoke

You feel you lost your son in an asylum of skyscrapers
I know how scared you are of this world

Please don't feel that you failed a maternity test

But I don't want to have to come home
like I am the sick nephew

Prodigal son in designer clothes
Keep him away from the babies
Especially the boys he'll contaminate them like sour milk

Don't blame genetics, dad, God

My life has borne a poetry no woman could provide

My poetry is a sacrament no church would have granted

If you listen to my words

You will never notice the absence of bridesmaids
Being serenaded by chords of rice
or miss the sound of baby footsteps

If you listen to my words fall
without the sound of stars
like grace of your denial

Don't ever think that I am not your son
or that I honor you any less

Here are my poems. Love them. 

You Bring Out the Writer in Me

Your breasts are couplets
Your body is a sonnet
Your thoughts share my soliloquy
Your kiss is imagery
Your eyes are iambic
Your tongue is trochaic
Your touch is stream of consciousness
Your complexity is Eliot
Your neck is Steinbeck
Your stubble is cacophony
Your presence is from fantasy
Your brilliance is Ashbery
Your ass is assonance
Your penis is epic
Your torso is tanka
Your rambling is a renga
Your fucking is foreshadowing
Your sighs are the climax
Your orgasms are onomatopoeia
onomatopoeia
onomatopoeia
Your clinging is Sexton
Your ejaculation is sprung rhythm
Your testicles are testaments
Your backbones are stanzas
Your viewpoints are omnipotent
I see you in epilogue
going
going
gone

 

 

 

 

 

 

Regie Cabico is a comedian, queer poet and teacher who performed for two seasons on HBO's "Def Poetry Jam."

The winner of a Nuyorican Poets Café Grand Slam, he has received multiple top prizes in national poetry slams with his work appearing in over 30 anthologies.

He is considered one of the top up-and-coming Asian-American stand-up comics and FootNotes is proud to reproduce his work for our readers.

All poetry appears due to the consent of the author and can be found in his 2009 publication, "A Capitalist Meltdown of the Global Kind."


For booking info, comments or to copy or reprint, go to Missbamboo@aol.com

 

 

Learning to be My Father's Son

you were a carabao lifting rice sacks under the Pangasinan sun
a handsome sailor on his way to Greece instead found a Filipino nurse
who hummed Elvis tunes she thought America would be a Technicolor beach
but arrived during the coldest Baltimore winter surprised by foods like pizza

you bought a house with a fireplace it was romantic mom said while mom
worked late shifts taking care of crack babies in south east DC you watched
basketball the bounce of your belt breaking me when I was three
for twisting the controls of the portable tv called me destroyer

you fed me the finest adobo, stews of blood garlic, chili peppers
when driving me to piano lessons you said you could never eat a piano
you could turn so red & jelly you convinced all the neighbors that you
should play Santa Claus when you were really hiding a temper that fists

thru doors the house you bought is boarded up with too many holes
to be sold your belongings strung outside a yard sale for the damned
the gorgeous cherry tree you killed with insecticides gone too
did you even know what you were doing pisces man lover of seas

whose hot spit I felt on my cheek the way my head spilt bloody
beaten by the boy across the street you lifted me by the neck
told me how you were slapped by Japanese bayonets don't cry
it doesn't hurt shaking me like a wet umbrella I want to know if you
ever saw me dad you hiding behind a hammock and sunglasses

saw the boy you made rub your back for a nickel I am tired of growing fat
like you know that you've become that apathetic sack of rice
buried in the fields what can I do to make it worth the miles
I want to play a sonata of love for you arpeggios of anger scaling

thirty-two years of tears for you metronome clicks for disappointment
in you my hands reach out to lift you higher than the volcanoes
Where gods gave men rice and from the altitudes of angels
I am not afraid to say I've come home

 

 
 

 

Poetry: BlackWoman Affair; An Unframed Photograph

 

By Thomas Beckwith

 

 
 
 
Black Woman Affair

Labeling her like she a file folder
because she won't let you degrade
her body and insult her integrity,
telling everyone she got attitude,
she already peeped your game.
She refuse to be placed in a cabinet
or up on a shelf like other women
you have dated and trashed like you were
slam dunking a basketball. She's strong,
black, educated, won't be barricaded
in misery or have spells cast on her.
You a pretentious brother
arrogant, conniving and controlling.

All your homeboys know, the only thing
you trying to do is smash and play with her
like you spinning the bottle. Too bad.
She confident, sophisticated, and dedicated.
If she get to know you, she might as well
audition for Tyler Perry's I Can Do Bad All By Myself.

You shadowing her move, saying that black woman
have an attitude.
Did you forget your momma black?
Knot your tongue, tape your mouth,
freeze your brain, she don't wanna
talk to you and your attitude.

An Unframed Photograph
 
Her beauty froze my mind,
but her lies shattered the background
of the waterfalls in the framed picture
we took together at homecoming.

She rode the waves of the sea
by luring me into buying her clothes,
paying her phone bills, I even bought
her lunch every day.

Lavish gifts came from the heart,
as she began to leave me at sea.
Drowned by sorrow, I tried to grip the side
of the boat, fighting not to let go.

Submerged by the questions
of what was happening, I gasped for breath.
I realized there was another guy in her picture. We were no longer the captain and co-captain.

Our ship sank because I failed to steer
from the beginning. I was framed
by beauty. I was no longer able to touch
the waves. They swept over me.

Avoiding death I managed to swim
back to shore. Bitterness circulated through
my body. I stared down at the ground,
and I noticed the wetness

of a picture that was folded into
two halves displaying her on one side
and me on the other side with my arms
cut off. I walked away trembling,

and I tripped on the broken picture
frame. It was surrounded by the glass;
then I realized: I had been placed in
a picture where I was not supposed to be.

Growing UP Motown ©

 

(A Collection of Essays about Childhood Experiences in Detroit)

By D. Kevin McNeir

Written by award-winning journalist D. Kevin McNeir, this collection of essays and poetry offers reflections from a diehard Motown baby intent on reminding his children, his friends and readers everywhere, of the beauty that was once Detroit, Michigan.

From everyday encounters to life-changing situations during the riots, these essays will recall a magical past with the hope that somehow that glory can be regained for future generations to behold.

All works are copyrighted and remain the sole property of the author. E-mail the author at dkmcneir@hotmail.com for more information. The book will be available in its entirety in the fall of 2010.

 

 

 
 
 

Santa Rosa Drive - 1965
Moving on up to the Westside

 


 
 
I felt like George and Louise Jefferson (you remember that crazy couple from the popular sitcom The Jeffersons) as our family of four traveled from central Detroit to our new home - a mostly Jewish neighborhood with well-kept homes, lush lawns and sprawling backyards. It was the summer of 1965 and we were "moving on up" to the Westside. Everything was fresh and inviting and even though we were just the fourth Black family on our block I was ready to make new friends.

The first thing that caught my attention - in fact what I remember most as the van pulled up on Santa Rosa and West Outer Drives - were the enormous trees that lined the streets. They stood proudly like sentinels on guard or like gatekeepers greeting us to new adventures.

I think they were oak trees although my knowledge of dendrology, botany and other related sciences has long since dissipated - drying up like those fragile, multi-veined
leaves that our teachers would have us collect from our yards, then ironing between two crisp pieces of wax paper that we could present to our mothers as keepsakes.

Every house on our street had a tree in front of it and the tops of those trees stretched up and out across the middle of the causeway, forming an amazing arch that provided us with plenty of shade in the summer, and a lot of leaves to both play in and eventually rake every fall. As the tree tops intertwined, they looked like dancers meeting for the very first time.

This was my street, these were my trees and I was five-years-old.

Then one day - the trees were gone. I don't remember how old I was but I know I was no longer the precocious, snaggle-toothed boy that believed the world had been created for his pleasure. Something had gone terribly wrong in my childhood Wonderland.

 
My daddy explained that my friends - the trees - had fallen victim to some sort of tree blight, maybe Dutch Elm's disease or some variation.

But I couldn't understand why a doctor couldn't heal them like my mom did whenever I scraped my knee or came down with the sniffles.

And so the City sent big, strong men with even bigger machines to cut down the trees - severing the arms, legs and torsos of my dancing companions from their once magnificent forms leaving only angry, ugly stumps with nutrient-deficient roots as reminders of their once mighty grandeur.

My father, a robust former gridiron star with a bellowing voice and a gentle soul, complained about the protruding roots and unsightly stumps that remained saying that the City should have removed the trees completely so that our sidewalk wouldn't have to be repaired when the roots made

their inevitable appearance on the surface like Tupac's rose in Harlem - tearing up the cement and his perfectly-manicured lawn along the way.

But I didn't care about all of that. I just wanted to sit on our porch, tussling with the family dog, sipping kool-aid with a crazy straw from my favorite superhero cup (Batman was the man) and watch the wind blow our dancing trees like lovers engaged in a sensuous tango.

I missed my tree-friends and longed for their return but there would be no abatement to my disappointment. It would be my first time learning about the cycle of life and death and at that point in my young life, I could not have imagined that it was only the beginning of a malevolent malaise that would slowly overtake our neighborhood, the proud citizens of Detroit and eventually our way of life - forever altering the beauty that was once Motown. It would not be my last lesson in the fragility of life.

 
 
 Dear Michael:
Reflections on the Death of the
"King of Pop" from a Motown Survior
 
 
Once upon a time, when I was just a little boy, I had the opportunity to not only meet Michael Jackson, but to play with him and his brothers. Chances are, he would never remember the events that led to our "play session" together, but for an eight-year-old boy, it was a magical moment in my life.

My child care provider before and after school who watched and fed me until my parents or my older sister got home from work, Mrs. Hunt, was coincidentally, the babysitter for the children of the late and great, Marvin Gaye.

Mr. Gaye lived on Outer Drive on Detroit's West Side, three blocks from my own home. And after the Jackson Five had signed their contract with Motown, which was also at that time based in Detroit, it was announced that the group would be performing at a popular, outdoor summer event, the State Fair. The annual outing to the State Fair was our last hurrah before school doors opened once again in September and it was always an exciting adventure.

Mr. Gaye was married at that time to Barry Gordy's sister, Anna - one of the nicest women I have ever met.

She treated Mrs. Hunt's daughter, Anita, who was the same age as me, and any children who entered the Gaye home, including me, like we were her very own.

One summer afternoon, which had been particularly fun with little Marvin running around the house and getting in every one's hair, Mrs. Gaye told us that Michael and his brothers would be singing at the State Fair and that she wanted to take us all to meet the boys.

After a lot of screaming and hollering and making sure it was okay with my parents, she loaded us all into her Rolls Royce Silver Shadow, a car that I liked so much that I begged my mother to get me a Matchbox (car) replica, and whisked us away like Glenda, the Good Witch of the North, to the concert.

Of course, being children with the Gaye family, Motown "kids," we received special treatment. For example, we didn't have to fight the crowds because Mrs. Gaye just kept driving and driving - on grass and sidewalks and around barriers and blockades that were mysteriously removed as her car approached. Finally, we got out of the car and stood in front of a trailer - and then, the five brothers came out and simply said, "Hello."

 
We wouldn't have much time to talk or play before it was time for them to take the stage - that would happen the following afternoon at a party that Mr. Gordy gave at his mansion on West Boston Boulevard, with all the goodies we could gobble up, and other fun activities including bowling, swimming, tennis, basketball and other children's games.

But what I remember most, both before Michael went on stage and the next day during the party and before the Jackson Five had to leave for another city and another concert, was the sad look in his eyes. It never really registered with me until just recently that even then, despite having it all, or so I believed, more than anything what Michael really wanted was the opportunity to do what I did every day and took for granted - enjoy being a little boy.

Maybe that's why he built Neverland on his sprawling estate. Perhaps that's why he invited little boys and girls to his home for celebrations that other adults could not understand. Maybe.

One writer who interviewed Jackson said that one of his greatest unfulfilled desires, when he was still a young boy, was to go outside and join other children, children that he did not know, on a playground and just … play.

Perhaps now, in death, the man-child who touched our hearts with his uncanny ability to dance and sing will finally have the chance to romp and skip in the playgrounds of heaven.

 And maybe now he is happy - at least, I would like to think so.

When I was a boy, we all wanted to be Marlon or Jermaine, Tito or Jackie, or of course, Michael, but I wonder, if I could have really switched places, would I have been able to embrace my new life and all of its challenges. When I look at the mountains that Michael Jackson was able to climb and the valleys that sometimes appeared to swallow him whole, I wonder if perhaps I was am actually the lucky one.

And I have decided to be satisfied with who I am and hold on to being an ordinary brother from Motown and celebrate the memories of a childhood when Detroit was a little like "heaven."

The essay above is from Kevin's collection of essays that he is currently completing for publication entitled, Growing Up Motown: When Detroit Was "Heaven."

 

 

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FORWARD
Considerably more than ten millennia had passed since the home planet of Terra had finally broken apart under shattering tidal stresses; leaving only fragments drifting in eternal orbit about a now-childless sun. The first colonist had evacuated the ancient star group and founded the peace-loving Terran races that occupied the regionally governed worlds known as The System.

When the Terrans landed on the first colony planet of Thessaly, there were no children in the crew. Multiple births were encouraged through the use of fertility drugs. The children came soon enough, for it was planned that there would be a five-fold increase in numbers during the first generation.

The thousand females and males aboard the transport ship represented the cream of their generation: genetically strong, all of superior intelligence, and all with histories of superior clan health. The gene lines had been searched for longevity factors, for this thousand had to assure the survival of their race. Life continued. Life spread and multiplied throughout the quadrant onto the worlds of Carthagia, Demetria, and eventually to the planet Aidennia. It was only one world within The System that had been civilized for many millennia.

Ever since two pioneer ships found the blue-green and white-clouded world some four thousand orbits before, the spacers' occupants and their descendents built a prosperous, self-satisfied civilization. They grew into a proud race that had tamed a world so wild that it tested the survival of the fittest amongst the Terran progenitor settlers.

The weak died before they could produce offspring, yet the infant mortality rate was frightful for thousands of orbits. But the Terran species displayed its surprising adaptability. The land changed Terrans before Terrans changed the land as they spread north and south from the first settlement of Novice along the planet's equator.

The race's physiology was subtly altered while outward appearances changed very little. Muscle tissue became denser, motor reflexes became sharper, perceptions broadened, optic capacities widened. A whole new range of physical and mental abilities began developing, just to allow Terrans to live under normal condition on a planet where weather changes were drastic, whose sun had a variable as to heat and to light intensity.

 
The Terrans began to build as subsistence was achieved. They built with a vengeance, these tuned-up Terrans. With vengeance, and ruthlessness, and a good deal of bloodshed.

They had to do what worked - fast. Those who did not let nature stand in their way did not allow other Terrans to do so, either. In building, as in adapting, the primary rule was to survive. Once a civilization began to come together on Aidennia, Terrans began to turn their attention on values. The Aidennians took as an assumption in their lives the fact that there was a right and wrong in the Universe; to kill was wrong, to give someone food as right.

Through generations of slavery, warfare, and of Terran sacrifice in the name of progress, the population of Aidennia ached inwardly for tranquility. They became a people of magnificent social organization, culture, art, and commerce. They turned away from being a military people; they thrived instead, on their remarkable mercantile abilities.

With the development of the supralight plasma drive in 4518 A.T. and the subsequent improvements for more efficient Space travel, the Aidennians were able to form with other planets a republic, The System. For the Aidennians also exported their culture as well as goods, and a derivative culture grew up on the Core Worlds of The System with their remarkable architectural logic, their hypnotic art, and the richness of cultural artifacts.

In centuries to come the Aidennians and their allies would live eventually a harmonious existence under a constitution set into motion by The System's elite senate seated by The Echelon.

The Echelon themselves were a caste of terran life forms that were the off-spring of genetically compatible parents from any number of sentient races belonging to The System. Like any result of interspecies coupling, mutations arouse that were better at adapting to new environments and situations.

 
The Echelon were such a change in the evolutionary matrix that became who they were after passing through a physical puberty as well as a spiritual rite of passage known as Ka-tela. Through the generations of mutation and growth, eventually all citizens made this crossing into adulthood; but, only those same-gendered in a mass majority were Echelon -- the minority continued on to be opposite-gender oriented and continued to reproduce and feed the numbers of The Echelon.

Systemite planets were bureaucratic monarchies. While Echelon spiritual vicars or "priests" dominated the government and while the senate had some ministerial functions, the principle role of the senate was that of CEO of The System; for the Systemites operated their territories as businesses, and entrepreneurships. While the bulk of the population enjoyed the wealth of interplanetary trading, the circumstances of that trade were tightly controlled from the senate. Beneath the senate was a large administration of scribes and bureaucrats who carefully regulated production and distribution both within The System and without. This administration kept incredibly detailed records, which exercised a great deal of control over the economy.

In order to facilitate trade, The System and their allies developed the most advanced navy that had ever been seen. The Aidennians had been an "astrocracy," that is, a "star power". With the rest of The System planets they developed a military navy, eventually called Spacecorps, all the while concentrating on trade and mercantilism. Initially, the Aidennians built warships that were mercantile ships with the capability of defense against pirates. Their trade was extensive.

The concentration of wealth produced social equality; the wealth was spread pretty liberally. Society became organized around kinship lines rather than to be organized around "class," that is, economic function. Life was good for just about everyone. In addition, there was no inequality along gender lines. Cultural equilibrium was achieved, tranquility soon followed.
The inhabitants of The System became tranquil too soon. That was to be their downfall.

Unknown to The Echelon was a power hungry and restless saurian race who called themselves Taurus Lacertilians - meaning bull lizards -- or Tauron in Systemite Contemporary Lingua. Totally alien in form and thought, they were an obsessive and dominant force.

 
A force that one-day felt they should rule the galaxy. This thought drove them far across the stars toward their first ambush against The System. Their first battle with The System began abruptly. They did not expect the republic to be prepared for war. To their surprise, The System was ready for any attack, and for the next century they continued in battle readiness.

As time wore down the rhythm of war, The Systemites forgot the extent of Tauron treachery and concentrated all energies on the time twisting of deep Space travel. To once again reach out into the void and spread life amongst the coldness of Space. In 6752 A.T., as Aidennia began its first colonization mission to a remote uncharted star and its serene satellite, the Taurons began a mission of their own…

 
 
 

Echelon's End© Book 1: Last Generation - "Target"

 

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PROLOGUE:
SYSTEM STAR CYCLE: 6752.0719 A.T.
PLANETARY DATE: 171/195
LAUNCH TIME: TEE-MINUS 02:32:30

A tranquil sphere hung in Space under a white cloud.

From a vantage point some four hundred kiloretems above, Medical Commander Dara Lidasiress was watching it beyond the thick syntheglass of an observation viewport; the sight was dizzying, fascinating.

The cloud shrouded planet was called Aidennia and seemed to lie almost in the trajectory of the Orbiter 1: Aidennia Station. The light of a strong, middle aged sun cataloged as Pintarus 19 fell on the cloud. Every so often, its rays illuminated attractive patches of blue and green on the surface of the planet concealed beneath its halcyon mass, giving hints to the planet's life abundant waterways and of its dense forests giving way to grasslands.

Over millions of cycles, the continents of the planet Aidennia had drifted apart, jostled together, and regrouped to form new landmasses. It now was a world of two broad regions.

In the west there was a single landmass, to the east several continental plates had fused but were still separated from the western continent by the small and shallow inland Eocene Sea. There were also island subcontinents to the north and south with coral reefs that were bordered by the mighty Tethys Ocean.

It was a lush green world covered in a tropical and sub-tropical paradise whose continents were lined by mangrove swamps behind which were dense deciduous rainforests, where each landmass had developed distinctive endemic animals and plants, natural selection had favored the most adaptable. Water levels and global temperatures were high - the spread of flowering plants filled the forests with fruits and scents, and in the dense, heavy, and mobile waters marine fauna and flora thrived. Life was sweet in the forests and waters that clothed the planet. Life grew healthy on diets of leaves, vines, roots, and fruit. In the forests was a menagerie of large vertebrates such as winged aviators, hoofed plant-eaters, and clawed carnivores. The warm planetary climate meant that the complex coral reef ecosystems flourished, as did the diverse off shore aquatic mammals, fish, and rich plankton and krill that roamed the globe.

   
Sprinkled here and there amongst the green and the blue of Aidennia resembling sparkling stylish jewelry was urban development, incandescent and translucent yellow, hallucinatory bright and sleek.

Magnificent parishes populated by great engineers and architects, building magnificently towering structural constructs in cities with hot and cold fountains, statuary, communal dining halls and stone walls plated with precious metals, harbors and docks, spaceports, meditation temples, arboreal parks, athletic and cultural centers.

The very heart of The System hummed and grew, governing and guiding hundreds of solar groups and their populous worlds down there, on the lush, verdant world; a wealth of Aidennian culture thrived.

The people of this world possessed great wealth thanks to the natural resources found throughout their planet, living simple, virtuous lives. Here was a planetary society interacting with many different interglobal cultures.

Aidennia was thought of as a world rather than nations. Freedom of religion and cultural practice were guaranteed. No one culture or group was able to dominate the rest.

Within that framework of diversity, it was also guaranteed that all individuals on

Aidennia and beyond had certain inalienable rights, including the material basics of existence, health care, education, and legal equality.

The land, air, and water of Aidennia were in the common stewardship of the terran family, and not owned by any individual or group. The fruits of an individual's labor belonged to the individual, and were not appropriated by another individual or group.

At the same time, terran labor on Aidennia - and throughout The System - was part of a communal enterprise, given to the common good. Aidennia, as were all Systemite economic systems, reflected both these facts, balancing self-interest with the interests of society at large.

The goal of planetary as well as Systemite economics was not 'sustainable development' but a sustainable prosperity for each planet's biosphere. Therefore, each planet's landscape itself had certain 'rights of place' that were honored.

The goals of environmental alterations were minimalist and ecopoetic, reflecting the values of universal harmony. Only a porton of each System planet lower than the five-kiloretem contour were made terran-viable. Higher elevations, constituting some thirty percent of a planet, remained in something resembling their primeval conditions, existing as natural wilderness.

 
It had been decided eons ago during the early unification of The System's first planets and subsequent habitation of other worlds that it was a historical process, as the colonization of new worlds was the first inhabitation of another planet by terrankind.

As such it was perceived in those formative times that colonization should be undertaken in a spirit of reverence for the planet and for the scarcity of life in the Universe. What was done in those first settlements had set precedents for further terran habitation of solar groups, and suggested models for the terran relationship to those planets's environment as well.

Thus The System's first worlds, or Core Worlds, occupied a special place in history, and were remembered when the necessary decisions concerning life anywhere were made.

A giant oceanic storm lay framed before Dara's eyes, capturing the image of a hurricane coiled to strike the Western Continent's gulf coast of Cheves Province. High clouds, borne on a hundred- kiloretem-a-node jet stream, sphinctered together as they coursed diagonally across the observation viewpane before her.

The crescent edge of the world she saw was studded with stars as the celestial bodies far beyond her home planet glimmered through the white vapor. Elsewhere in the endless vista of Space, a multitude of naked stars were burning in all their glory.

Dara's attention refocused as her peripheral view caught a glimpse of her reflection coming off the window. A tall, powerful slender, fine-boned figure, with high cheekbones and penetrating chocolate eyes that gave a look of great delicacy foundated in extraordinary resiliency framed by a neatly cropped mane told that she was no shallow youth, but a fully mature adult.

Her figure was snug inside a flight hibernation oversuit, firm and svelte. Her angular features were still unlined for all of her seventy-plus cycles; seventy had become the new fifty. An athletic siress of three, she well-carried the biological rewards bestowed upon a terran female who had lived the majority of her life in a germ-free environment.

A simple gene-booster treatment could have erased the silver salting of her pepper hued hair, but she elected to keep her hair natural. It served to remind those younger around her that she was of the generation that still valued the aging processes.

 
Her image was superimposed queerly over the world below like some omniscient goddess scrutinizing her patron planet for judgment or reward, although it was she who felt like the subject awaiting sentence.

A skilled practitioner of Space medicine, she had taken up a position here on Orbiter 1 after her spouse and she had been promoted within the ranks of the Aidennian-System Spacecorps. They had three children to their credit, all of who had achieved success and recognition in their own chosen fields.

A warm feeling pervaded her being as Dara thought of her clan, all together, all successful, and all about to embark on an adventure where survival would be a game with the life forces of the Unknown.
She and her clan, along with several other families, composed of scientists and terra forming specialists, were the leading figures in the Mira Probe Mission.

The colonizing team was to conduct a manned landing on a new planet discovered by deep thrust telescopic probes. A distant star beyond the known limits of The System, scientists called Mira.

Pride should have been the only emotion she felt as she and the others awaited clearance to board the probeship AST Saarien docked to the Orbiter 1, yet the simple uncertainty of what lay ahead caused the feeling of fear to creep its destructive talons into her consciousness. Mira was a star light cycles from Aidennia and the colonized allies of The System.

It was a remote and uncharted celestial object serving as a primary solar body to Mira IV, a planet sized satellite. Yet it had shown favorable evidence of supporting System life and ultimately, it might solve the current population explosion that was ringing throughout known Space.

Aidennia had been selected by The Echelon from the myriad of inhabited worlds to be the first planet to colonize the Unknown. Since Aidennia was the hub of The System's peaceful administration, and the most technologically and spiritually advanced, the choice was obvious: Aidennia was to play the role of trail blazer.

 
Out of thousands of candidates, Dara Lidasiress and the other crewmembers were selected and trained. Time seemed to have passed too quickly. She could not believe that the event was only moments away.

Within heart beats, she and those she had grown to know, love, and respect would be ushered off into deep Space, spending the next three and a half months held in a state of suspended animation and re awakening automatically as the Saarien entered Mira's solar group.

Beyond the vapor of the Aidennia's atmosphere, hung two attending satellites, each of their mass approximately one eightieth that of Aidennia. The two airless orbs housed mining teams, scientific communities, security bases, and industrial plants. Revolving around them were Orbiter stations staffed with medical and administrative personnel.

Together, the Orbiters and the moon colonies formed an entire planetary support system and provided much of the research for the Mira Probe Mission. Dara grinned with some happiness knowing she and the others were doing a service for their race and its allies.

Yet the sadness in departure remained. She drank in the sight of her siressworld one more time. She burned every cloud and land formation into her memory and made sure she would never forget the colors and the beauty of Aidennia.

Saying good bye had not been easy, especially to her elder sibling, Aspera. A native Aidennian, Dara was born the second daughter of Whilhelm Berlsire and Lida Maesiress. Dara's siress was a brilliant neurologist while her sire was the founder and owner of Aero-Space Engineering Corporation, a large firm famous for its air-spacecraft navigation systems designs; she inherited the brilliance of her sire, and her capacity to heal from her siress.

Her parents enrolled her in a private academy catering to the needs of gifted children. Dara had a normal childhood despite her obvious intelligence, goods looks, and clan affluence.

That all changed shortly after her elder sister Aspera had graduated from an engineering lyceum in Bensalem Province, her parents were killed on re-entry from a moonbase business/pleasure trip when the shuttle they were on broke up due to faulty wiring and crashed. Aspera took over running Aero-Space Engineering

 
Corporation and had become Dara's only legal guardian; together they occupied the clan domicile on Aidennia. Dara continued with her education under the loving and watchful eye of her elder sister all the way through her acceptance, graduation, and subsequent enlistment in Spacecorps Medical.

Aspera Lidasiress, along with friends and business associates, were all supportive of the Mira Mission venture; yet there had been tears and sorrow at the departure. A sadness that had kept a small place in her heart now pulsed as Dara viewed Aidennia below.


As Orbiter 1 spun, its arc brought it directly over the planet's Western Continent. Aidennia's landmasses inhabited districts were divided into territories governed as administrative population units. Seen from orbit, cities resembled toy villages in paperweights.

Many of them had smaller domes all around their districts that had merged to become a kind of greater cityplex, covering

almost one hundred and eighty degrees of a territory, with pistes interconnecting each vaulty bubble.

One cluster of development caught the physician's eye. It was cosmopolis built entirely within a caldera, occupying the round floor. A collection of forested parks, penthouse skyscrapers with arcuate balconies, glass elevators to rooftops with heliports, pistes, flying freeways …the entire crater covered in a city.

Dara couldn't help but to take one more look at her natal soil, Ashtangi Province. Stepping over to the observation window's control panel, she tabbed in a few key commands. Quickly a holographic-overlay eclipsed itself across the vast and blue and shining, spinning globe of Aidennia.

In the center of the picture, tucked between two gentle folds in a caldera landscape, were three massive domes covering a breathtaking panorama of city buildings; all the metropolises on Aidennia were domed, because at twenty-seven kilometers high the air was a tenth as thick (thirty or forty millibars) as it was at the datum - or sea level.

 
The metropolis was vast, attested to by the data scrolling in columns alongside the main image, and sat just inside an outer ring of water, spread across an oblong plain covering a circle 43 mets by 18 mets (70 kr by 30 kr). This was a densely populated area where the majority of the metroplexes population lived.

Massed glass towers rose, some 102 floors high, almost to the transparent dome roofs, where landing pads for helicopters and aircars were located, giving residents a variety of alternative travel options. Busy thoroughfares connected the towers. Small craft jetted about in the air.

Boasting no crime, no pollution, and no over-crowding, Ashtangi Province was a veritable utopia, able to accommodate up to 3,332,000 people.

It was a typical Aidennian metropolis, in that it provided residential apartments, guest accommodations, commercial offices, retail businesses, recreation and cultural areas, large cafeterias and followed the planetary urban  philosophy that represented and commemorated the victory of progress over stagnation, science over superstition, prosperity over depression, conservation over wastefulness, beauty over ugliness, serenity over tensions, enchantment over drabness, wealth over squalor, cleanliness over dirtiness, efficiency over inefficiency, success over failure, convenience over inconvenience, comfort over discomfort, security over insecurity, and happiness over unhappiness.

 

 
 
 
A network of monorails connected Ashtangi Province across the countryside. Beyond the city lay a fertile plain 330 mets (530 kr) long and 110 mets (190 kr) wide surrounded by another canal used to collect water from the rivers and streams of the mountains which soared to the skies and surrounded the plain to the north.

An abundance of wild animals roamed the oblong plain famous for its various geysers, hot springs, and other geothermal features. Lakes, rivers, and meadows dotted the mountains. Food supply for the province came from farms in the surrounding countryside just beyond the metroplexes circular highway, as well as greenhouses, fish tanks, and a meat cloning center next to agrostations.

Agrostations provided all kinds of herbs, fruits, and nuts. Every rotate, fresh produce, fish, and cloned meats where brought to the city kitchens from the greenhouses, fish farm, and cloning center. All food was cooked and eaten the same rotate it was brought in, this eliminated the need for canning, freezing, preservatives.

It was a well-balanced, ecological synergism between land and urbanization.
It would be quite some time before Dara Lidasiress' gentle eyes would see this sight again. She turned away, not wishing to view more she discontinued the 3-D close-up veil. As the observatory port cleared, she sat in a nearby sofa and rested her head meditatively in her hands.

 

 
Commander Capel Perezsire stared out the curving viewport of his emptying-out office in the elevated dome of Orbiter One: Aidennia Station, and sighed. Behind him a team of Spacecorps crew-personnel scurried about moving packed mementoes and essential data-carrying hardware. Before him, the view from the towering artificial satellite of homeplanet was panoramic, letting him see the vast urban belt of the metropolitan mega-tropolises extending beyond even the horizon slipping under a dark, terminator sky.

If he turned 180 degrees, he would see the same sight, where another metro- population center merged into another. Aidennia seen from Space looked extraordinarily lovely to him: a perfect disk of blue, stippled with white masses of clouds.

The outlines of the continents were surprisingly indistinct, vaguely apparent amidst a wondrous swirl of atmospheric vapors against the vastness of the waterways that gave Aidennia its beauty from this vantage point.

Perezsire witnessed a hurricane wrapped ready to bash the Western Continent's gulf coast of Cheves Province. Touching contact points on the panoramic bay-port's sill caused holographic data streams and graphic schematics to overlay the image far below the view.

Like all weather, marine cyclones were fueled by heat of sun-drenched topical waters, which powered the storms by sending warm, moist air rushing toward the frigid upper atmosphere like smoke up a chimney.

As the surrounding air was sucked in at the base of the storm, Aidennia's rotation gave it a twist, creating a whorl of rain bands. Those whiptails of thunderstorm activity were strongest where they converged in a ring of rising, spinning air, the eyewall, which enclosed the cloud-free eye.

The tempest up for inspection was propelled to an altitude of fifty thousand retems and was climbing more as the rising air finally vented itself in spiraling exhaust jets of cirrus clouds.

 
According to preliminary data, the meteorological AI predicted the gale-force winds could be sent some six hundred and fifty mets, packing some one point five trillion watts of power in its winds - equivalent to about half the planet's entire power generating capacity.

To occupy his mind, Commander Capel surveyed the scrolling dropsonde sensor data and found the engine that manifested this great weather came from surface waters of eighty noches Heit or more, moist air, and little wind shear - a difference in wind speed at the surface and aloft that could tear apart a developing hurricane.

Tropical climate shift brought warmer waters and reduced wind shear allowed the Tethys Ocean to spawn this aquatic demon. Spaceborne infrared sensors revealed more details than ordinary satellite images that showed only cloud tops, charting the size and shape of the warm eye, and satellite radar and microwave sensors mapped the rain.

The only reprieve came in the form of a landfall, it was a death sentence - cutting off the hurricane's watery fuel supply. The storm inevitably would weaken. That would be scant solace for those caught up in its death throes. Most casualties came not from wind but from rain, waves, and surge - the vast amount of oceanwater that was pushed in front of the storm, raising in some incidents some twenty-eight retems.

From the corner of his eye, Perezsire followed the purposeful orbit of a weather metamorphose satellite as it aimed a suppression antenna planetward. A beam of deionization energy struck the vortex of the mighty storm from the antenna's barrel and instantly the typhoon began to spiral apart.

A powerful downdraft was generated, counter to the cyclone's updraft. The whirl began to slow, to shudder. And then, with one water-flattening whoosh of air, it was blown out. It became nothing more than a benign tropical storm - an unremarkable cluster of thunderstorms. A kraken slain.

 
Homeplanet seemed to Perezsire like a vast placid park, sprinkled here and there with concentrations of civilization. It was a tranquil, tamed world that would be surely missed, as were the special collection of those closest to him.

Quick flashes of memory suddenly came to mind as he drifted off into a private past-life of merriment and celebration, of laughter and determination, and of accomplishment and felicitations.

Born the fourth child of an Eastern Continent's leading scientific family, Capel learned at an early age that hard work and determination had its rewards regardless of his good looks, athletic prowess, and high intelligence that gave him an edge over most children of his generation. Perezsire's life had been one of popularity and reputation in both academic pursuits as well as athletic accomplishments.

His interests in geology and astronomy had led him into the field of Planetary Geological Sciences when he enrolled in Spacecorps. Graduating with honors he quickly tackled degrees in Astrophysics and Applied Planetary Geology.

Through it all, he had won a number of awards for outstanding ability and leadership, ushering his quick military ascent to Commander within the ranks of Spacecorps exploratory branch.

Along his rise in position, Capel had acquired many friends and associates that were saddened but congratulatory when the announcement had been made that he and his clan had been one of four teams selected to be onboard the probeship AST Saarien when it left as The System's first test colonization mission in almost a century.

There had been parties and celebrations after the cycle long training for the mission. With the rigors of mission training and the congratulations for boarding behind him, Capel was growing restless.

He was eager to leave Aidennia and the stable environment it provided for himself and his family. The need for the opportunity to work in the field of geo-astrophysics under some more practical application called to him.

 
 
 
The Aidennia he knew was not the one of his sire's generation. It was still the prime center of terran civilization, even if most of what was new and eventful was taking place in the off world settlements - notably on the twin moons, which now had come to be worlds more Aidennian-like than Aidennia in every respect but its gravitational pull.

The moons turned constantly against the black star-flecked background of Space, brilliantly white, their scared faces unique in their beauty - of a different kind - excited Capel Perezsire too: their starkness, their simplicity, their airless static unchangeability of them.

The closest moon was approximately 356,000 kiloretems (221,600 mets) distance from Aidennia, while its fraternal twin's orbit was approximately 406,997 kiloretems (252,950 mets). Each moon was made visible by reflective sunlight and had a slightly elliptical orbit. Each mark on their surfaces was a fascinating kind of inspiration: the long record of time, each a long poem that had taken billions of cycles to create and demanded admiration for their immensity.

For Perezsire, his homeplanet's natural satellites white faces held only purity, each a beautiful austerity, a wonderful cool majesty that seemed almost something sacred. Each moon was an exciting, intellectually stimulating place with constant expansion going on.

The civilization on Aidennia was mature and sedate, but the moons were the frontier, with all the wild energy that frontier challenges inevitably called forth.

The population of Aidennia --- of all the System worlds - was growing, growing like lichen over every rock in the collective solar groups. Billions of people, trillions of people, quadrillions of people, all as close as immortal as they could make themselves …
So why did Perezsire choose Mira 4 over the frontier already circling above the very skies that he called home?

It was time for expansion. It was a good thing, leaving for Mira 4. Good for his clan, his species, he told himself, trying to suppress subtle doubts that were bubbling up inside.

"Commander…" a Spacecorps yeoman called his name from the room's opened doorway. The male stood gesturing like a juggler, hand-signaling the movers what to take next as he simultaneously carried on a conversation with another petty officer via a collar-pinned communicator. "Commander, excuse me. The briefing is about to begin and General Ondon Yisire has requested your presence."


Nodding, Perezsire moved purposefully alongside the eager male down the echoing metal corridor of the office suite and back toward the domed conference room. The corridor was brightly lit and filled with people.

Spacecorps garbed males and females hurried passed him, a few chattering at the people nearest them, others striding along without speaking while staring straight ahead - it was a motley sea of black form-fitted uniforms with polychromatic stripings. Occasionally, a hovercar filled with people floated passed, scattering the crowd with a sharp whistling sound.

 
Situated overhead every ten retems or so were holographic section identification placards, directing personnel and visitors to specific sections of the station by letter and color code. To one side, Perezsire noticed a young dark-haired female ensign utilizing one of the corridor's wall-mounted flat panel terminals.

At the touch of her hand and after speaking some key words, the station's stand-by legend faded and the display glowed a light pattern that formed the words Level 4, Area-J. An overlay of the level appeared with a glowing locator on it that indicated the designated area.

Over the Public Address system announcements in Contemporary, Anglia, and other languages added to the hustle and bustle of the station and its thoroughfares: "Shuttle Flight One-Zero-Three-One to Orbiter Three Sigma, leaving at Zero-Two-Forty-Five from Concourse C, Gate five"; "Suborbital flight twelve-twenty to Sivananda Province, Concourse B, Gate fifty, now boarding"; "Suborbital Flight Five-Zero-Three to Tada Drashtuh, now boarding, Concourse A, Gate nine"; "In-System Flight forty-one-eleven from Sheey now disembarking Concourse D, Gate twenty-five…"

Perezsire kept his stoic expression and avoided the passerbys eyes as they strode passed him down the corridor.

The passageway was lined with a bank of vision ports, giving a sectional panoramic view of the docked probeship AST Saarien.

He paused at the observatory vision ports, wide-eyed with admiration, his internal thoughts abruptly and utterly forgotten, including the hurrying yeoman. It was easy locating the supership amid the clutter of alien and Spacecorps vessels daisy-chained around the points of the station's docking pylons; its emblem graced its sleek hull like a beacon.

The spacestation and the probeship were both tidally locked in orbit around Aidennia, hung poised together with Saarien's starboard airlock on its upper most deck kissing one of the station's tubular docking bays while its ventral hull was held protectively in the dock's spaceframe scaffolding. Both orbited at seven planetary radii, affording an excellent view of most of Aidennia's surface.

Orbiter 1 itself was of an old-fashioned doorknob-locking mechanism hybrid design, with its two knobby ends jutting away from a central command-operations hub that in turn had habitat thoroughfares bristling off its pivot to connect to an encompassing outer utility ring.

On this vast concentric hoop were attached the station's engineering, maintenance, defense, and docking bays.

 
By any standard of measurement, Orbiter 1: Aidennia Station was typical of its contemporaries swinging in the Aidennia solar group, being that of an extremely large free-flying orbit station respective of its origins and current residents.

Its basic design form was that of a set of staked regular orbs built out from a vertical stepped-cylinder core that served as the focal point to a spinning ring housing tall sweeping pylons with wide buttresses.

It was to one of these massive assemblages of alloy and composites that the probeship was linked and it was from one of the axis command-operations deck viewpanes from which Perezsire observed.

Capel couldn't help but enjoy his point-of-view's vista and the dance between station and ship as seen through the transparent sectioned viewbank.

It was a dramatic impact heightened by the light that flooded the probeship from every angle within the huge orbital station, seemingly doubly brilliant against the sapphire-jade orb of Aidennia and the velvet blackness of Space beyond.

The Saarien had a beauty that was different from any other spaceship yet seen, a slim soarer, as swift and tireless as an aquatic raptor.

It was a series of six majestically streamlined, composite welded sections divided into forty-two decks accessible via a series of service tubes, travellators, and lifts linked together in a straight line by a central spine.

Its silvery photoreceptive hull was embedded with nanoretem-scale sensors that constantly monitored the outer skin's materials' condition.

 
Molecular wires of elongated molecules, some of which even naturally self-assembled into useful configurations, carried signals from all of these in-woven sensors to the central computer. Nanotubes in the hull skin acted as conductors and semi-conductors.

Self-healing materials made of long-chain molecules called ionomers kept the probeship airtight. The probeship's first section was the command module from which the Saarien was piloted.

The second module was used as a lab, medical and life support facilities, primary crew's accommodations and relaxation compartments. Next were the gourd-like designs of the navigation and computer section, followed by the area containing the service airlocks, stowage racks, and maintenance and hangar bays.

The fourth module tapered away from the rounded hulls of the service and maintenance modules to form the triangular dimensions of the main water and atmospheric recycling units section followed by the fifth module housing the probeship's nuclear furnace.

The final part of the Saarien was the hyperplasmic-drive chamber with hydrogen ionic collection nacelles and dual drive units. Running down the axis of the juggernaut was its defensive arrays; the weapons alone packed enough punch to take out a small moon with a single shot.

The spacer's architecture resembled a grand musical score composed of a sprawling metallo-bio-cyber-construction.

Perezsire knew the probeship's specifications evolution from drawing board to construction.

As he observed the visual fruition of that progression it delighted his sparking eyes, tickled his memories.

He marveled at the Saarien's command section, the upper most structure of the spacer that thrusted off the tapered superstructure's mainframe like a majestic curved crest.

This module was ten decks tall and within its walls were the majority of the probeship's command facilities.

 
Below the command decks, specifically on decks 11 through 21 were a sampling of all probeship services from surgery and the intensive care unit of the medical section to recreation facilities of the relaxation module to the Saarien's environmental habitat and astrophysics labs.

On decks 22 through 32 were segmented compartments dedicated to medical experimentation, life support's hibernation center, and food preparation labs for the probeship's hydro-and-aeroponic farms, dining areas, storage facilities, and bio/chem. terraforming labs; and a separate section that included the hangars and service bays.

The remaining decks down to 42 were basically an industrial area containing all the recycling facilities required to make the probeship self-sufficient, and the necessary control centers for Saarien operations should the upper level control stations ever become useless.

"Commander," came the urging whisper of the escorting yeoman. The male stood expectantly in the opened hatchway into Mission Operations.

Perezsire had been taking a momentary flight-of-fancy on a virtual tour of the majestic conglomerate in his mind.

The tactful reminder from the patient yeoman was enough to snap him out of his reverie and quicken his gait into the active situation conference room; leaving the yeoman to his other duties.

It was a familiar scene to Perezsire. There was a command console, supporting desks round the perimeter in a horseshoe. Beyond the conference spread there was another larger central command area, seen through a panoramic window where several technicians were moving about on routine chores.

The Mission Ops chamber was alive with electronic equipment and monitoring devices reaching toward the curved ceiling. As everywhere, Spacecorps personnel filled the room. It was full of controllers, troopers, maintenance personnel - along with syntheform androids of varying models and sizes, all of who were diligently involved in preparing for the launch of the AST Saarien.

The officers Perezsire had to see were busily engaged around a great circular console centered in the horseshoe desk configuration, their attentions riveted to a hologram flashing brilliantly colored readouts. A holographic representation of the federated worlds that comprised The System was up for review.

 
Centered in the light display were the Core Worlds, inner planets of The System. These planets where the first to form the United Allied Democracy of Planetary Governments, their populations reached out into the void to neighboring outer worlds to form the collection of sentient species that founded The System.

The planets Carthagia, Thessaly, Demetria, Osprey, Thebes, Thrace, Asenath, Potiphar, Heliopolis, Trano, Yama, Ettarre, Aidennia, Sheey, Calliope, Doria, Mantilles III, Januria, and Venita comprised the Core Worlds. This cluster of planetary suns consisted of stars set less than a light-cycle a part, held so close together by their gravitational affinity that the area of Space they occupied was constantly bathed in a lovely yellow light.

Ondon Yisire, wearing the uniform of a Spacecorps general, straightened his tall frame as he noticed Perezsire's entrance.
"Officers," he called out, getting the room's top officials to quiet down and focus in his direction. "We're at Tee-minus Two nodes and thirty. This briefing is the finality to a mission that has taken cycles in the making."

Touching an icon on the main console caused its projector to change its image. A new planetary representation coalesced into the making as Ondon commented, "By now all of you are familiar with the object of this mission: planet Mira Four."

A few more touches and the hologram of the rotating orb zoomed in to show its topography close-up. "And, Site One."
Perezsire edged closer to the ring of admirals, generals, and fellow mission commanders.

This was all rote for him by now, but he understood the significance. It would be some time before he acknowledged orders from Headquarters.

The general was going on, saying, "…each Portable Off/On-world Domicile or POD will disembark from Aidennia-System Transport Saarien out-solar group half a light-cycle and make their way in-solar group at sublight speed for touchdown at Site One approximately five nodes post-reanimation."

 
The hologram conjured up three- dimensional miniatures of four saucer- shaped crafts playing out General Ondon's narrative. It was an old story for the assembled.

"All the alternatives for the establishment of Site One have been studied, all the resources evaluated, all the hazards taken into account; moreover, the settlement plan itself has been carefully mapped out so that the site along with link-up with AST Saarien fit into the final pattern, whose purpose is to outline the landing path to Site One."

A few more touches from Ondon and the holographic presentation converged into a sea-level view of Mira IV. The general went on, "Site One will then serve as a landing beacon for future settlements.

As you know once Site One has been successfully established, it is hoped to have at least ten thousand new colonists transported each cycle.

Architectural plans for urban expansion and celestial map as well as astronomical

alignments of the secondary sites are all pre-programmed into both Saarien and Pods."

The topographical image shimmered and then became that of the crested javelin-shaped probeship parked amongst a myriad of celestial gems. The Miran solar group took up a position in the distance, providing a realistic backdrop.

"AST Saarien will stay stationed out-group for the duration of the terra-forming mission along with future transporter carrier convoys, acting as in-group support and HQ relay to the colonist," Ondon said. He then turned to the line of mission commanders.

"The thoughts and wishes of all Systemites go with you and yours. Oversoul speed to Mira."

There was a brief moment where each officer clasped forearms with another, then the ever present Orbiter 1 computer announced tirelessly, "Tee-minus Two Nodes and Twenty-Six and counting. All teams to Prepping Facilities."

 
A shadow fell beside Dara Lidasiress. The ivory flash of a flight hibernation oversuit caught her attention. It was Capel Perezsire, her spouse. A fine figure of a male, he stood neatly trim, not young, yet far from old -- being only a cycle older than her.

His face was intense and handsome, mouth sensitive, eyes dark and enigmatic. His hair was smooth, auburn brown, rather fine, with temples that had acquired streaks of gray on both sides, and he looked freshly and cleanly shaven: no mustache, no beard, no facial affectations of any sort.

Capel Perezsire was a male of controlled passions. Dara looked up and smiled. He slipped his arm around her comfortingly.
"Thought I'd find you here," he murmured in her ear. "One more look?" he asked.
"Aidennia is so beautiful."

"And just as beautiful will we find the planet around Mira." He nibbled at her ear lobe affectionately.

Her smile broadened, and she shook her head. "No, Capel. You're always dreaming things like that.

You don't know what this world is really like, no matter what reports say from the unmanned Spacefarer Nine. It's not going to be easy."

"You have to have faith. What's the use of this whole expedition if we don't have that?"
Dara looked deeply into his eyes. "I do have faith."

"Good. You've read the reports that came back from the probes and their BioType D-8 Syntheform crews. Mira Four has confirmed findings of a breathable atmosphere, safe levels of radiation, an Aidennian-like gravitational field, a plentiful water supply, and an excellent climate. It even has a habitable moon."

"How romantic, and promising -- a choice of two worlds."

"Quite," Perezsire said as he smiled. "You're a scientist; your eyes and senses have all the facts. Now we must join the others. It's time."

"Happy to oblige." She rose and thoughtfully followed behind Capel's lead.

 
 

 

 

Look for the next installment of "Echelon's End" in the March edition of "FootNotes" Magazine

Born in the Midwest, raised in the Northeast, E. Robert Dunn began writing at the age of 14 and continued through his higher education in the Southeast where he currently resides.

In addition to penning the science fiction series "Echelon's End", E. Robert has also written two off-Broadway plays, "LipSync" and "A Dragged Out Haunting", and penned a local play entitled "VOiCES". Just last year, E. Robert was a contributing writer to the online STAR TREK: Odyssey's Season One Finale webisode [featured in STARLOG Magazine, January 2008, "Beyond Hidden Frontiers", p.89].

Besides being a produced playwright and published author, E. Robert has had articles printed in local newspapers as well as medical newsletters. He has also graced many a stage by his given name: Eston Dunn.